J-Dub 6 Shots

[J-Dub]

I said I would do in the name of good fun, so here it is.

1 - Yep, I guess I will copy Scott with the better half. Let's be honest, without that one woman who will put up with our dumb a$$'s, the human race would have died with the cavemen. She puts up with everything I dish out, and I know if nothing else, that I dish out a lot of bullshittyda. In all honesty, she keeps me sane, otherwise I would be like many others and just work, WWG, sleep, repeat.



Yeah, keep that "aww" stuff to yourselves.


2 - Who would be here without their family? I'm fortunate enough to have more than just a DNA donor. Unfortunately I don't have any pictures on digital of my father. We are not the picture taking type of family, and unfortunately he passed away 9 years ago. My mother on the other hand is alive and was the one who raised me most of my life. I know not everyone has the perfect family and not always on the best of relationships with them, but for me, I can't be mad at anyone who works 2 jobs to take care of my bum a$$. Oh and yes she takes digital pictures now days, but this was the one I had on hand, and yes that is baby J-Dub.



But there is more to this story, I have a sister as well. But more than that I have a niece and a nephew on the way. Of course with life the way it is, I have yet to meet my niece. So in a way, Uncle J-Dub doesn't exist.



3 - The only other aspect of my life that is as dominant as the above two is this little guy. My dog. He is a tubby little Jack Russell/ Boston Terrier mix. I don't mean it like most do when they say "my dog is one of the most important things in my life" because I actually have a reason behind it. When things get low, and they have but that is on another section, he has always been there. Don't ask why, but that is a dog thing and it was much needed during a lot in the last 5 years. That and he cracks me up sometimes.



4 - For those who have yet to know, which most if not all of you do, I was in the Army once upon a time. It was some of the best times in my life, and when I was asked to leave, I wasn't happy, for a long time after as well. I walked in as a lost 20yo and exited a lost 29yo. I was in an awkward time, after everything was said an done, I had no real world job experience, a 60% disability rating that included a then misdiagnosed PTSD, and a GI Bill, which allowed me to go to school for a while. I was in a gray area, to long in to remember what it was like in the working world, but no long enough to get retirement benefits, which was always my goal to retire from the military. It was a shock, more so than I expected. To messed up to work manual labor jobs but too over qualified to do anything that would pay the bills. To spare any sob stories and such, it sucked. It took me almost the entire 5 years to figure out what I wanted out of life. The lady had a hand in that. Regardless of all the bad things, I would never trade it for anything, because without everything, I wouldn't find myself here. Here is a little picture of a young me in the Army.



Please don't say "thank you for your service". Myself and others appreciate you recognize our service, but after a while, it almost seems like people are doing it as a fad. Besides, no offense or anything, but I know I for one, didn't do it to be thanked.

5 - This one is more personal to me, but it can be shared by everyone. I would not be here today, if not for comedy. Ether watching a movie, stand up live, or just making people laugh myself. Everyone loves to laugh, but you appreciate it more when you are down or stressed to your limit and you watch something, and laugh so hard, everything is good again. I love that sh!t. So I am putting up one of the funniest pictures I have ever seen, I laugh every time I look at it. Before anyone asks, no I am not in the suit, but I wish I was.



6 - My final entry will be my passion. That is to create. I once was a film major in college, for a very long time to be honest. But I love all aspects of creating. From making a film, writing, sketching, what ever. The idea that you can create anything, good or bad, is a wonderful thing. It is the closest thing to magic you can get. There are only two things that I am marveled by more, and that is the creation process of a baby (I know how they are made) and how the universes works. Heavy things I know but when you think about someone who has lived in a cave all their life, and never has created anything, and sketch a picture in front of them for the first time, I could only imagine they would think your the Devil. That is why I appreciate the art of tattoo, and why I have spent a ton of money getting them.



No that's not Shamus, I doubt he would be on a low budget set. This was me on one of the last sets I worked.

[Brad]

Holy ****, your Shamus.

[The Wretched Nobody]

I never knew that about your dad, man.  He obviously made some kind of positive impact though for you to be the kind of person and friend you turned out to be.  I guess whenever you'd told me your mom did the majority of raising you - I just didn't think it was polite (there I go being a stereotypical Canadian) to ask exactly why.  I truly hope your neice and soon-to-be nephew get to have some more of you in their life... because I don't think you'd find anyone here - who wasn't cracking wise, anyways - who'd say you don't bring a lot of good to any situation you're in.  You're a good man, Stephan... so I do hope that's something that can change for you if possible.  I don't know the details and I don't mean to make it sound easy because I know you're someone who'll do what needs to be done - IF something can be done.  I'm just saying from one friend to another... I hope that changes in your favor.

I like the really retro picture of you and your mom though... top-left bud.  That's solid and heart felt and it strikes home with me... my mom and I are close too - my old man's not dead, nor is he a deadbeat... but let's just say I get my Take-No-Crap near-merciless attitude honestly. But I don't have any pictures like that because we're both emotionally close but physically stand-offish, and my kin aren't photo-junkies either.  No B.S. I can count on a hand - maybe a hand and a half the amount of times I've hugged my mom since I was like 12-13.  I guess maybe it's our mutual interest in psychology and one too many readings on Freud's work?

Now that we're past the real talk... GOOD LORD YOU'RE UGLY!  Your woman is beautiful, but who says blind women can't be gorgeous, amiright!? And I feel comfortable saying that - because even though you're trained by a war-loving government to be able to kill me... I have the security of a keyboard and monitor between us!   And YES you own guns, but none that shoot this far, MOFO!

Seriously though... the uniform looks badass... but keep the goatee, because you have the exact same problem I do.  Buy a pack of Razors + Use them = 12yo's Face.

Just out of curiosity... do you know how much money and/or how many hours you've spent under the pigment smashers?  Until someone else shows me the style - I know you're up there with me so far as coverage goes and I've had the vastly unfair career advantage of being able to go to work and get some pal/co-worker to do a tattoo on me for nothing or next to nothing.  So I always like to know about the people who actually have to spend on them because my view is long since skewed.

I mean my collection is valuable to me... but it's more valuable (in my opinion) when someone has to spend hard earned money on it - because I have some that are straight up nonsense JUST because I wanted a tattoo that day.  Like the Alien in a Urinal.  (Hmmm... maybe I should start a Body-Mod Picture trend on here too!?)

[J-Dub]

Yeah I'm forever young when I shave. I took 3 weeks off when I was in and came back the day before and they almost didn't let me back on base with the bushy beard. I look like a homeless guy right now because the lady did Bre Bella make-up and wanted a lumberjack bf too. Yeah she loves Bre lol. And I asked her everyday for the first three months why she was with me.

The dad thing, yeah. I don't talk about it much, not because I haven't moved on or anything, but it's because I'm a selfish prick like that. He did give me a lot of his personality and morals, so he was pretty awesome too. Life's not perfect and we all have only one choice but to keep moving anywhere. My favorite philosopher and doctor in psychology is Freddy Neitchze because he said "you never truly know a man until you see how he handles an overwhelming situation" which has pretty much been my life moto for years.

You mentioned the kind of person and friend I am, it comes from everything I've observed in my life. Why would I be so selfish to force my problems on everyone, when they have their own problems. Usually you end up alone with no one. Being level headed and having a good ear tends to not only feel good, but creates a bond that you tend to have the favor repaid, sort of like the pay it forward movement but mine.

I like this project. I breaks the barriers of handlers and characters to people and writings, something I haven't seen, but that's just what I haven't seen.

[The Wretched Nobody]

That was the plan of it... like I said, I'm Scott Carr - Not Carr, Not Wretched Nobody.  Those are fake characters in a fake federation that I play for the sheer enjoyment of it.  It's only a select few, like yourself - who know much of anything about me beyond my absolute basics.

[J-Dub]

Sorry I forgot to answer your tattoo question. I've spent about 72 hours total under the gun. Spent about 1200 on my sleeve (still unfinished with all the color), about 1300 on my other arm of randoms, 300 on my half sock and about 700 on others. A lot of that was under the friends and family discount, why I have a lot of unfinished work, I was a time filler. Most people here charge about 65 to 300 an hour in my area. If you want quality work you're paying about 100 an hour. The "masters" out here have up to a year waiting list to get looked at. Not that I'm against paying 300 an hour, I'm just not waiting a year to be considered.

[Jade]

You HAVE to go as Sheamus for Halloween one year dude, you even have the flat cap already

I was really close to studying film in university too! I never knew we had ther film buffs around here too, def gonna have to get up some kind of topic to unleash the need to talk for days on end about movies I think haha.

You and your partner make such a cute couple btw, and I love to see big tattooed, bearded men showing their huge admiration and love for their women. I guess it's true when people say behind every great man is a great woman I echo what Scott said about your family too, I hope you manage to see more of your nephew and neice when the chance arises. Just bring them lots of presents and cuddles and you'll be their favourite uncle in no time

[J-Dub]

The good thing is the family may be moving out here by me, possibly with me. So next year we will see how it goes.